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great weekend in flagstaff/jerome. weather was great, bike riding was great. food was great. now only if i could have found a Moped rental place and not found the osmosis jones creepy truck driver...then the mini-vaca would have been 150% amazing rather than just 149% amazing. damn, sluts! just kidding...this weekend was 200% amazing:) <3nb
-vince
ps. our show (itslikelove) at the marquee theatre last week was freakin' awesome. life is alright:)
pss. hangout with kevin and doldy tonight was awesome too. reminiscing and joking around can sure be nostalgic/liberating all at the same time. haha, oooohhh titanic night!
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[02 Apr 2009|01:00am] |
certain days make me feel like i am exactly where i should be.
some days make me feel like i am not where i should be.
some days i feel like there is something missing.
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man, things are good!
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[11 Aug 2008|08:51pm] |
we are the poison.
we are the medicine.
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[20 Jul 2008|11:40pm] |
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Independent - adjective - not influenced or controlled by others in matters of opinion, conduct, etc.; thinking or acting for ones self.
Selfish – adjective - devoted to or caring only for oneself; concerned primarily with one's own interests, benefits, welfare, etc., regardless of others.
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[19 Jul 2008|02:30am] |
...The Dark Knight was seriously the best cinematic experience i have had in a very, very long time. I was blown away by the performance of every actor as well as the production as a whole. Christopher Nolan created the best Gotham City I have ever seen, he had the cast, the excitement, and the story, the drama ( i could go on) to carry you every second of the film. The one downfall in my eyes, though some will disagree, is that it was only 2 and 1/2 hours...i could have sat there all night I was so blown away by it. I highly recommend you all go see it, it is the best of all the super hero movies I have ever seen.
On a side note of that, it was also my first trip to the movies alone..I went right when I got off work to the last showing of the night...it was definitely a weird feeling haha..oh well though, it was worth it.
The times, they are a-changin'.
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[07 May 2008|06:23pm] |
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so finally it is summer. the semester from hell is over with. this semester kept me so busy and i felt suffocated in it. but it is over with, and i am definitely stoked for whats to come. no real big plans this summer yet except for Vegas at the end of the month with jake sarah and kolleen, thats going to be a great time. im anxious for things to get back running smoothly like they were before this semester started. kevin is back in town for the summer, doldy will be coming soon, brittany is moving here. i couldn't be more optimistic and anxious for this summer. i still hate my job, but it pays the bills. but, i can honestly say i am excited for the future rather than being distracted by past. :)
as childish as it sounds i think i am going to make like a checklist...sort of a "things i have to do this summer". The list will be completely selfish tho, and be the things i want to do for myself...one of which is go up to flagstaff with Judith and just hang out with no real plan of what to do...pretty random i know but i think it'd be a lot of fun haha. Judith and i have become like best friends, shes actually layin on my bed right now watching me on the computer...she follows me wherever i go throughout the house haha.
of course vegas will be on the list like 3 or 4 times haha, but another is to go on a road trip..like a legit road trip like justin and i went on when i graduated high school all the way to florida...the best thing about this list is that since i am where i am in my life, it is all completely possible and will be solely up to me to make it happen.
its mothers day on sunday and i have to work all day, which is a bummer...they even made it so we open at 10 instead of 11..so lame. hopefully i will be able to get to the parents house before then to see my mama.
oh yea, the best night in a long time just took place a few weekends ago! my parents 25th anniversary..it was cool because it was their anniversary, but they included me and megan so it was kind of like a celebration for the 4 of us. we had the most epic meal that i've had in years. their love, commitment and happiness are seriously the most inspiring things in this whole world. so congrats to my parents for making it a quarter of a century! them, me and my sister are quite a bad ass team...recognize!
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[17 Mar 2008|05:52pm] |
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Well today was a big day for me; I had my first job with Studio T, Inc. I worked camera for a conference dealing with law enforcement on indian reservations...U.S. Senator John Kyl was there as well as many other important people..it was an awesome experience for sure. Tomorrow morning I will be working camera for them again filming some '08 Cadillac cars for commercials for Lund Cadillac. Exciting stuff..it was one of those days where it seems like things are all starting to come together even if it is at snails pace. I really hope this is my doorway into the whole big world of film, I'm ready to get my life moving and get out of Abuelo's. Spring break proved to be like, the busiest time for me ever...even though I didn't even have school I was so busy..but it was good. Being busy like that keeps me focused on things which is definitely something I need from time to time. Of course there are always little speed bumps that that make me veer off track, but I realize those instances are out of my control and virtually unavoidable so I just have to stomach them and roll with them.
Well, it was truly a 9 to 5 day, so I am ready to feast on some food and enjoy a beer or two in honor of ol' St. Patty.
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[15 Feb 2008|01:22pm] |
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So yesterday I got back from my journey. I booked a flight to Omaha Nebraska at 3:30 in the morning on tuesday, and was on my way by 9 o'clock. It was completely unplanned and it was by far the coolest thing I've ever done by myself in my whole life. I really can't put into words how I felt...a new sense of independence and self-realization. It's something I'll always look back on and remember, and I spent it with one of my all time best friends and even made some new great friends. From practically hitch-hiking into town, drinking at the bars with perfect strangers, and being 100% unsure of what the hell I was going to do once I arrived in town, it was 2 of the best days of my existence. I seriously could go on for pages, but I'll refrain and just say this... life is crazy; so maybe to make sense of it and gain an understanding of things... perhaps you should do something a little crazy. People may say I've lost my mind, gone off the deep end or whatever... but I wouldn't have changed a thing about what I did for the world... except maybe not have missed my flight home and panicking to get another flight booked to make it home for work on time haha.
:) This month is going to be great.
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[12 Feb 2008|12:53am] |
just get me the hell out of this town already.
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"I need to know that it's possible that two people can stay happy together forever" - juno
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| new hobby. |
[29 Jan 2008|05:33pm] |
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my new hobby is taking Judith on runs around the neighborhood. the path we take is almost exactly 2 miles and its perfect, she loves it and it feels so refreshing, especially at 5 oclock in the evening. i've noticed i am quite popular when she is by my side, everyone wants to see her and pet her haha its great. i've also forgotten how liberating running is, it clears my head of everything and then for the 30 minutes after i'm home, i just sit in my sweaty clothes and let the sweat pour. its so refreshing and gets me in the perfect mood to have the perfect night which will consist of sam, jake (maybe others) and Ah-So:) take care fooools
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| 2008: So this is continuous happiness. |
[03 Jan 2008|08:39pm] |
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New Years is usually known as a time to make a resolution. I heard a lot of peoples resolutions... things that they thought were far fetched but they still believed they could do them. I, myself did not make a resolution because I didn't believe there should be a day you wait for to make your resolution (or change). I have made many changes lately, and they were all for myself. They weren't done because the coming of a new year or because someone said I needed it, they were all for myself. In the past weeks I have rid myself of all of the demons that were plaguing my life; the demons that slowed me down or sidetracked me from life.
So I decided, rather than make a resolution toward the new year, I should reflect on the year prior and also give thanks for those who were there for the whole past year... those people or instances that are what got you through everything the past 365 days. I believe those who deserve that recognition from me have received it, they know who they are.
How could this year have ended any better than it did? It felt like it ended the exact way it started. The whole past couple weeks have been exactly what I needed to cure my horrible case of nostalgia. It has made me realize that I am finally the person I have waited 9 months to be.
Its funny because I finally had one of those moments where like, it's sign or an instance that tells you that you're exactly where you're meant to be in life.. it happened a few weeks back, and that night was probably the biggest turning point of my life. We'll just call it "vince and dan's uber-gay moment". Though it was very straight, hahah. I guess only he can understand.
I know I think I am so down and out about my life from time to time but i really do think I have a lot to be proud of in reflection to last year... I finally moved out on my own, paying my own way through life with my good friend jake. I also bought myself a brand new 2008 scion XB which is something I would have said would never happen at the beginning of this year. I made extraordinary grades in school while working ridiculous hours at work (i made "deans list" or whatever its called for spring and fall semesters). Oh yeah, how could i forgot i lived up to the Perez name by buying a big screen HD TV haha. I also went on a cruise, several vegas trips, and most important of all...one of the best Clifton trips of my life. In the grand scheme of things, I now realize I had a smile for almost all of 2007. I did things that weren't necessarily me but I think we all lose ourselves from time to time... but i now know its not the losing yourself that is important, its the finding yourself that makes you.
I want to say thanks to all of those who have shared laughs, shared tears, or just lent your ear or shoulder for me... 2007 taught me that I am blessed for those that are in my life, and that I am loved... and you all know who you are. I love you, always and forever.
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In all my little reflection I forgot I wanted to talk about 2008. First off, I just turned my two weeks at Abuelo's finally so my first goal is to get a job in my field. At this point I'm willing to get anything even if it is low level (entry level) dealing with media production, so I'm not limiting my options to just editing. I have a few potential jobs that I am excited for so we will see how that goes. I also decided I am going to take classes outside of just editing at SCC so I can broaden my horizons in film production. There are a few education classes that I am interested in taking as well because I have been thinking lately about the reason I am in love with editing is because of my high school teacher Mr. Koury... and it makes me want to be that kind of person for others, like being a high school media arts teacher. That would be awesome. Also, I still have the goal of attending Columbia College in Chicago but stupid SCC offers classes in the worst fashion so we will see how i can possible make that work. I think 2008 has a lot to offer me and i am very optimistic to say the least. I feel that everything in all aspects of my life are finally coming together just in time for this new year. Bring it on, new year.
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I'm dreaming of a white Christmas, just like the ones I used to know.
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[13 Dec 2007|09:51pm] |
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-holiday sweater party was awesome
-work is boring as always
-its nice not worrying about homework and projects for school
-i leave for vegas on sunday night
-mama per, papa per, and my sisters are going to see the beatles - love
-i would love to get tickets for phantom of the opera in vegas sometime soon too, it'd be cool to go with some friends over the break
-i want to join a hockey league or something
tonight will consist of sitting outside while the beatles are playing on the stereo and im consuming a beverage or two. i've got the house to myself tonight, i enjoy these kind of nights.
christmas is like 13 days away!!!!!! its coming so fast.
my mind has been going crazy lately.. it feels like so much is happening, but nothing really has changed...its weird. that made a lot of sense i'm sure. oh well, i am going to watch the 2006 cruise video downstairs haha. this should be a fun night.
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| oo de laallllyyyyyy |
[09 Dec 2007|11:14pm] |
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ahh. with one click of the "submit" button i am done with this semester. finally. winter break time.
:)
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now what do i do tonight? hmm boredom
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| If I could...I'd only want to make you smile. |
[06 Dec 2007|01:45am] |
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Country is nice at 2 in the morning when its cold and quiet. Life is good as my dad would say...stress is slowly drifting from me as winter break gets closer. Less to worry about, one class being completed at a time. Man, who knows what next semester is going to bring. I am just ready to have one full day all to myself with no work, no school, and no homework to complete while i am not at school. it is going to be nice...we have a cool little party coming up.."Holiday Sweater Party". You can come so long as you wear some ridiculous holiday sweater...it will be the best night for the best time of year. New years is coming, dan micah jake and I will be play a little show at the PERents house...wonderful music, wonderful company, and a new year will be all one needs to be happy:)
I haven't been in this good of mood since like...a long time. Hopefully this keeps up.
"I'm always waiting for life to take its course,
it gets hard when it is not my heart that decides.
For it is I who waits to walk the path...
The path that leads to where our hearts collide."
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Nights I spend alone in the house really help me to understand myself. There's no sounds or voices... just me and my thoughts. I think a lot... if my mind were a nascar race car it'd definitely need a pit stop (sweet analogy i know). I saw my family tonight, it was nice for all four of us to be together and just shoot the shit. I feel like my parents look at me with different eyes at times..like they're trying to see something deeper than I am showing. I feel like I am showing exactly what I am feeling or thinking but I think they're like looking for something to be wrong with me..like there is no way I can be doing okay.
I wrote a song today. But, I'll probably never show you because new songs don't always go over well.
Saturday is the Halloween party..I usually try not to make a big deal about Halloween crap cause I'm not a fan of its timing...but I am actually excited since I have the night off and will be jamming with my uncle and his band buddies to some good tunes while playing drums and guitar and stuff...
At least I have something to look forward to other than moving to Chicago.
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I really don't care for mondays. Wake up early, go to school for 6 hours then rush home to get straight to work for 6 hours. No time to stop. I really don't care for October either. I could sure use November some time soon.
School is crushing me but I'll live. I've been keeping to myself a lot lately, don't really know why. I guess I just don't have too much to share with people. Things are unlike any way they have ever been in my whole life. That makes it sound bad, but it isn't. Just different.
I've been reading old personal journals I used to keep...they're kind of interesting to read because I was such a closed book for the whole beginning of my adulthood. But then I guess I changed...I totally forgot about my journals...it's weird how your brain or your heart can "hide" certain things after time passes.
I feel some sort of change. Something I can't really describe. Nor can I tell if its good or bad because I don't feel its a change in me. It feels more like a change in time, or something in which I have no control of...Whatever it is, its making my mind go crazy.
I won't jump to any conclusions about it or read into it too much, I don't need to.
Copeland is pretty much singing me to sleep...
I hope to hear from ya.
"take care"
pun intended.
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[03 Oct 2007|04:46pm] |
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Happy birthday to me.
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[23 Sep 2007|10:35pm] |
So, I have been sitting here writing for a while. I keep deleting things because I feel they aren't really relevant to what is going on in my life. Perhaps, this is because I don't really think out loud, or on keyboard about what is really going on in my life. Don't get me wrong, because things are very good, new and fun in my life; but something keeps me from digging deep. I'll figure it out soon I'm sure, just as I always have.
I have been going through a lot of Don't Let Go stuff, reminiscing about touring, recording and just our friendships in general. It's weird because I kind of think of that whole experience as a model of life, but in more of an optimistic and "happy" way than how the real story was. For some reason, just watching it is really liberating for me. Most rant, talk, or write about things for that kind of satisfaction, but I guess for me I just watch videos or look at pictures and it helps. I guess it kind of makes me realize that there are chapters in your life, and its okay for one to end and another to begin.
I have been crazy busy lately between school and work. My schedule works out just right for when I'm not working, I am at school and vise versa. It is a good thing for me to be busy though because it keeps me focused. It allows no time for a wandering mind.
Life living on my own has been really good, finally. I feel I actually have a list of accomplishments that I am not too modest nor hesitant to share. I moved out on my own (becoming nearly 100% independent). I purchased a pool table (one of my favorite hobbies), traded in my truck and bought a brand new car (in my name and all), have became super close to so many people I may have never given a chance in my past "life", and finally I just bought a brand new 50 inch HDTV and entertainment center for the house (yes I am my dad's son for sure). I guess that list sounds kind of material and "snobby" with the exception of my friends, but I am content with it. I am content with having fun toys:).
Moving on to more of a family related segment, I have never been closer with my parents and sister. We talk about pretty much everything and treat each other as friends and equals. I don't know where I would be without them. Its really cool because my cousin Chelsea just moved in with my parents and Megan. Its like she's even more like my sister now rather than my cousin. We just celebrated my mom's birthday with a nice Outback dinner and then a family get together tonight at Nene's house. It was great to see the whole Hodge bunch; it feels like its been a while.
We went to Clifton a few weekends back and I have to say, it was the best Clifton trip to date. So much fun was had. That place is the one place that I will always hold closest to my heart. It like it has special powers, the power of true feeling. I feel alive up there. I feel like nothing else matters besides the ones that are sitting next to you, who just happen to be the most important people in your world. I always tell myself I will go up there more often to just get away, but I never do. Perhaps if I had just the right company to come with me, I'd be able to go back more often. Its weird how things change.
I'm graduating in May with an Associates Degree in Editing for Motion Picture/Television Production. I'm applying to Columbia College in Chicago in October. I would have never thought about Chicago.
I turn 22 in a few days, I'm kind of excited for it, but other than my birthday I pray that October would just be gone.
I guess thats about it. Homework is done for the night. House is quiet and empty. I think I may just lay in bed and enjoy some sleep. Take care of yourselves.
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